Today I took a walk and across the lake I can see Seattle covered in a light haze. Above there are breaks in the cloud cover and the rays of the sun are breaking through and illuminating small portions of the world below. One spot is hitting the lake and it is shimmering and shining. It's the way water is meant to be seen. All of it' recesses and peaks are at their best. It has dimension.
Normally when I write a post I unleash my inner sarcastic bitch and just have fun writing without the filters in my spoken dialogues. But today I write from my insecurities. Today I write from within my own fog wondering when the sun will get to me.
I feel rejected by the world. It is a strange feeling. I don't doubt my own self worth of the strength of my character. I feel I am well rounded, amiable, and have a good character. But I doubt that others value me.
It is a sad truth that we can't be whole without connection to other human beings. Sad not because a life in seclusion is better, but sad because those we depend on will always let us down. They are after all... Only human.
I am a religious person and so I do believe that God is there and so no matter what I am not alone. And that even if others don't value me God always will, just as I am. But today, that just doesn't seem tangible. To sit and watch a movie with God is just not the same as to sit and watch a movie with another human.
I suppose regardless where I find myself in life this will always be a problem. Even if I meet "the right one for me" and we get married and have a plethora of children, I'll still have days were I feel undervalued or unvalued altogether. As long as we need, we'll always find ourselves in moments of loss.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
110% Liars
So maybe I'm too analytical, but have you ever thought about when people say that they are giving 110% of themselves to something. Not only is that not possible, but it is so obviously not possible... is it just me or doesn't it seem extremely idiotic to say?
It it like advertising you don't understand the basic definition of 100% of a limited resource. 100% of something is all of it. If there was 10% more that would have been included in the 100%. The only cases where 110% make sense is when there was more of something to give that wasn't given in the first place. So you're saying give me 110% of what I had before. Or what that other person had. Like in the case of a big bowl of M&M's where you give someone 10 and then tell them they can have 110% next time.
When people say they are going to give 110% to something it makes me think of a couple of things. Either they are someone who generally doesn't put their best effort into something. Say they typically give only 50% of their energy to something so now they'll give 55% of it. Basically they are generally a slacker.
Or the other conclusion I come to is that they are illogical and don't think through what they say before they speak. They are over committers and self saboteurs. They set themselves unattainable goals (either intentionally or unintentionally). Which in their inability to achieve causes them to doubt themselves and feel inadequate. And at the root of it all they are not to be trusted.
If they are so easily able to spout off unachievable comments as if they were indeed reasonable and attainable, what else could they possibly be over exaggerating and committing to in their lives?
I realize this is a common catch phrase in our society, however something being common doesn't make it right. There are far more inaccurate and obviously stupid concepts believed to be truths that have been spread around and believed in cultures and societies around the world throughout history.
It it like advertising you don't understand the basic definition of 100% of a limited resource. 100% of something is all of it. If there was 10% more that would have been included in the 100%. The only cases where 110% make sense is when there was more of something to give that wasn't given in the first place. So you're saying give me 110% of what I had before. Or what that other person had. Like in the case of a big bowl of M&M's where you give someone 10 and then tell them they can have 110% next time.
When people say they are going to give 110% to something it makes me think of a couple of things. Either they are someone who generally doesn't put their best effort into something. Say they typically give only 50% of their energy to something so now they'll give 55% of it. Basically they are generally a slacker.
Or the other conclusion I come to is that they are illogical and don't think through what they say before they speak. They are over committers and self saboteurs. They set themselves unattainable goals (either intentionally or unintentionally). Which in their inability to achieve causes them to doubt themselves and feel inadequate. And at the root of it all they are not to be trusted.
If they are so easily able to spout off unachievable comments as if they were indeed reasonable and attainable, what else could they possibly be over exaggerating and committing to in their lives?
I realize this is a common catch phrase in our society, however something being common doesn't make it right. There are far more inaccurate and obviously stupid concepts believed to be truths that have been spread around and believed in cultures and societies around the world throughout history.
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