I changed jobs recently. Same title, same company, but a new team. It's sad really. I mean, the excitement of new challenges is there along with meeting new people. There is a lot of joy involved. But the thing is that along with all the joy comes morning so long as there was something to be left behind.
Had I completely hated my old job and those I worked with I think this transition would have been easier. However that was not the case. I did hate certain aspects of the org structure, and did feel I was not being treated with respect by a few key people. But 80% of the people I worked with and tasks that I did I enjoyed. So it's sad really the the 20% was bad enough that in the end I felt I needed to go.
So I mourn in my joy. I miss the sense of confidence I had about my previous position. I knew what I was doing and I was good at it. In this new role there is a lot more uncertainty. I miss the people I wored with. I miss people stopping in my office to chat, the personal connections I had. And I miss the friends I thought I had.
Working with people so much, it's inevitable that sometimes life outside of work would spill in. And I had many relationships with people which continued outside of work with BBQ's and dinners. So when the connection of work is severed, you hope that those things were real enough that the friendship will continue. And it's sad when they don't. I'm not saying that was the case with everyone. There are some who this change has strengthened our friendship. We actually chat more often now and about personal matters rather then complaning over work. But there are others who no longer contact me. Who say they are too busy. And that... that makes things so much more... bitter-sweet.
